•February 13, 2015 • Leave a Comment


There are times in life when everything seems to be a bit of a blur and you can’t understand what is going on.

At the moment, I don’t even know how I feel. It’s so confusing.

I guess that happens in life.

You are going along as normal and everything is fine and then you realise things are in a muddle. But you have no idea how it got that way.

For me, in these times, no matter how much they suck – and often they do – I find the only thing that is constant and the only thing that encourages me that this is not permanent is my Father God. Because He is constant. He is faithful.

God is the only one who knows how to unmudddle the muddles. God wants to unmudddle our muddles…which is pretty awesome.

I can’t understand things… Often they are too complicated,  occasionally even mindblowing. I can’t even understand God.

But I can understand that God is faithful, that He is with me and that I can trust in Him.


Because it’s in the Bible.

So life might sometimes be a muddle where I can’t understand but God is good, he has a plan and his love and faithfulness endures.

God unmudddles muddles.

Isn’t it Odd?

•November 23, 2013 • 1 Comment

So I haven’t blogged much recently. I’m beginning to realise how when you grow up, the time you had becomes less and less and life becomes busier and busier and sometimes if you’re not careful you can find it taking control of you. Isn’t that odd?


Why do we allow things to take control of the lives we are called to have control over?


And isn’t it odd that you can go days and days without anything bothering you and then something will unsettle you and you won’t even know why? 


And isn’t it strange that some people can be so keen to get involved and others appear that they don’t care?


And isn’t it peculiar that when you need to rest you will be restless?


Isn’t it odd being a human being?


And isn’t this a really odd post…

I don’t understand Lord

•August 20, 2013 • 1 Comment

I don’t understand Lord
How this can be
The way this plan is working for me
The way your plan is moulding me

I don’t understand Lord
What you’re doing
How you’re working
Why this must be

I don’t understand Lord
The way that I’m feeling
Why trusting is hard
Why failing is certain

I don’t understand Lord
How it will work out
Why the miracle needed
Is completely unseen

I don’t understand Lord
Time is running out
Faith is fading
Hope is draining

I don’t understand Lord
I’m longing to trust you
I’m praying for peace Lord
I’m waiting for a miracle

I don’t understand Lord
Why doubt fills my heart
When the king of Heaven
Holds my life and my heart

I don’t understand Lord
The way that you’re working
The path that you’re shaping
The me that you’re making

I don’t understand Lord
But I know you’ll come through
There’s nothing I can do.

I don’t understand Lord
But from the depths of my soul
I’ll keep trying to trust you

I don’t understand Lord
The things that you do
But from the bottom of my heart
I’ll always love you!


•August 14, 2013 • 1 Comment

People are funny things.

They can make a big or small difference in your life, make you laugh or make you cry, make you dance or make you dive.

People have an impact on us whether we like it or not!

This morning I Said goodbye to a friend who made and makes a big difference in my life always for the best and always makes me long to be a better version of me. She inspires me, loves with me. We’ve laughed, cried, danced, dived, better or worse! She’s like a sister to me, we grew up together and now we leave home together. Off to what God calls us to do next for her it’s to work with OM in Chile (check out Kath’s south American adventure). For me it’s church work in fulwood.

You know the amazing thing about God is he puts the people in our lives that we need, that we cam encourage, support and watch as they grow in God and their relationship with him blossoms.

Relationship matters!

Its funny in the UK we can be sat on a bus or a train and say nothing to the person next to us. We can be so British and so scared that talking to the other people Sat on the bus is so horrifically daunting that we just freeze.

That conversation could change your day, your week, potentially your life or the life of someone else.

Do we dare to change the world with relationship?

Its so obvious but so simple. Yet How often do we forget that simple fact?

It’s so easy accessible and something anyone can do. Your never too old, young, fat, thin, busy, free, rich, poor, clever or anything else to have a conversation!

If Jesus did it then why can’t we?

The Cost

•August 10, 2013 • 1 Comment

So this week we went to a Christian festival which was AMAZING! But the interesting thing was that in a number of the worship songs and point were about the cost.


Worth it All by Ben Cantelon


‘I let go of all I have
Just to have all of you
And no matter what it cost
I will follow You
Jesus everything I’ve lost
I have found in You
And when I finally reach the end I’ll say
You are worth it all!
You are worth it all!’


The Cost by Rend Collective Experiment

‘I’ve counted up the cost
Oh I’ve counted up the cost
Yes I’ve counted up the cost
And You are worth it’



These are just to examples of songs where the artist speaks of the cost of following Jesus.

But what I love?

The reminder that there is a cost to following Jesus, to being a Christian, to being Human.


We make SACRIFICES in order to do the right thing and to be the right person etc!


Sacrifice is a word that people don’t always like. It sounds like a burden. It’s hard. Cold. It’s a challenge. Sometimes it feels like it’s too mcuh.


What’s the sacrifice?


Your time? Your Money? Your job? Games? Food? A New car? A new house? Control? Pride? Jealousy? Friends?


I realise some of these things don’t sound like sacrifices. For example sacrificing control of your future, sacrificing a lack of trust in God, sacrificing your fear about something (like a driving test opportunity – silly as it sounds) and giving it to God instead of Holding on to it is freeing, releasing and encouraging! But to give it up can be a sacrifice.


But what about the word gift?


I don’t know about you but I think that has much better connotations. It’s positive. It’s good! People think about a gift and are happy.


So instead of sacrifice replace the word sacrifice with gift. Give God your worries, your job, your house, your children, your wife/husband/partner, your finiances, your future. You can trust him!


No matter what the cost You are both it all. 


BOTH those songs proclaim no matter the sacrifice we have to make he is worth it. So give God a gift of sacrifice because no matter how hard it is and how big it is he is undoubtedly worth the cost! 

Matthew 6 v 25 -34

Do Not Worry

    25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?

   28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.


No matter what the cost                                                       I’ve counted up the cost

You are Worth it all                                                               You are worth it

All hope is Lost

•August 7, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Today I took my driving test for the second time after failing my first test doing something completely stupid and dangerous from fear the examiner would shout at me. I started my first test with nerves but fully believing I could drive and God would help me. I retook it today feeling incredibly nervous, incredibly weak and preparing myself for the worst despite knowing that I can drive and that I have the ability to drive to. I literally begged God not to make me go through it again, to pass, to be successful. The impracticalities of being unable to drive are extreme where I live. Though public transport is available its awful and expensive. And to walk? Well it may be possible but it is exhausting and as a waitress on your feet all evening it isn’t wise either. It’s asking for trouble really.

This morning I failed my second driving test because I touched the kerb in my left reverse. I was and am heartbroken. The cost, the time, the increased difficulties and above all the fact I should be moving in just under a month and would be transportless!

In the UK, A Level results come out in a week and what if I failed those too.

To me, I have no hope, no faith, nothing left to give. It’s a broken heart. I believed God would come through and meet my need but he didn’t so now I’m stuck having to trust despite the difficulty that he’ll come through.

There’s nothing I can do.

Maybe thats the point.

To put me to the end of my tether.

But it makes me wonder…

What’s God’s plan?

Tim Hughes writes…

When pain surrounds I’ll call you healer when hope is lost I’ll call you savior
When silence falls you’ll be the song in my heart…

Maybe thats it?

Introducing – Journey With Jess

•May 14, 2013 • 2 Comments

Hello all,

For those who are familiar with my blog I use it for a range of purposes which are not at all related to the blogs original person (though the second bit may be less familiar).

So last week I began a new blog by the name of Journey with Jess (see here: http://journeyingwithjess.wordpress.com/).

This is a specific blog. It’s about my Journey and about the path God is leading me down. If you haven’t check it out or followed it please do. In 4-5 months I will be leaving my beautiful county and moving to the other side of the country.

This will all be related from Journey with Jess.

I look forward to sharing my journey with you and joyfully wish to thank you for allowing me to partake in yours.

The Journey


Many thaanks and blessings!


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